I hate not being able to get work done

I locked my keys in my car this morning. It was just about the suckiest thing I could do to myself.
I had a whole long list of things I wanted to get done today. Instead I was stuck at home doing nothing pretty much.
I kept busy by organizing and throwing away unneeded things in the kitchen here. It was boring to say the least. (minus finding my great grandpa's moonshine, haha, :D )

I can't wait to start working and getting things done this summer. I want to get my dads bike fixed up. So far it looks like it's gonna cost me around $100 just to replace and install the tires/tubes/rimstrips, then I gotta get the brakes checked and maybe replaced also, not to mention getting a car rack....I can't wait to get a job to start paying for this. I think it's a cool looking bike and it's not a piece of junk, it's a low end of the high end stuff, plus it's an heirloom now so I really wanna get it fixed up to ride. My dad put thousands of miles into it while he was in Germany and it's still in great shape.

Tomorrow I got to get things done and also I'm going to a show with my sister and it will be fun, even if the crowd/bands will be a little more punky/skinhead(?) than I'm used to. I hope I don't get hurt if I decide to venture into the mosh pit...I think I'll not do that this time.

I hope I get that job in San Marcos...my uncles house that I would be staying in would be fantastic to live in. Who could resist living with three gay guys in a giant house with a HUGE fully-stocked kitchen, and your own guest bedroom with two beautiful views? It would be such a fun time. Not to mention the one job that I really really want is at a place that is perfect.

I think I'm done now.

I'm almost outta here!

I leave on the 10th from Phoenix and hopefully will get into San Antonio on the 10th also. It depends on how well my dad and I drive. I'm hoping he trusts me with longer streches this time. I'd rather drive back up here in August on my own so we don't have to waste money on flights. It's a long drive, but it's really pretty awesome, driving is one of my favorite things.

My new baby cousin was born one week ago today. 8lbs and 14 ounces. My aunt had to get a c-section because Sophia just didn't want to come out. They induced in the morning and she still hadn't come out before 7:00 PM. But I hear she's absolutely beautiful! I'll see her next Saturday I think.

I've got so much to do before I leave, these next few days are going to be crazy busy. I can't believe my first semester is almost over. I have 1 paper (due later today @4!!) and 3 more finals. I hope hope hope I do well in my classes and keep my GPA higher than 3.5, I'm really gonna need that buffer later I'm thinking.

I've been on Tastespotting just about every half hour of every day. I'm ridiculous. But it's sooo addicting and the pictures are so gorgeous. It makes me want to cook so much. I can't wait until I can make things this summer!

kk...I need to get to writing my paper!


"It's the moments that are gone that will lead us home."
-The Grassroots Campaign

The spoken word

In my chicano/a culture class there was a group presentation on the chicano/a spoken word. It was fantastic. I wish I felt creative enough in writing and such to be confident in writing my own poetry and whatnot.
I read some Sandra Cisneros aloud to myself earlier. It made me want to do a taco shop poetry readings sometime but I'm scared to ask people to come with me and I don't want to go alone. I think I'm scared they'll say yes and I'll have to go and read poetry to strangers. Do I really want to put myself out there like that? I'm conflicted. I think I do. I think it would be awesome to see reations to something like that...but am I really the kind of girl who would go do that? I would like to be. Yikes.

That Luna powder drink stuff is gross.

I have too much to eat in my dorm room. I went on a snack spree over the past few days and my mom sent me an Easter basket/box with a ton of candy and snacks...and I now have enough snacks to last me a very long time. It's time for me to take up doing some excercises again. It's been too long already. Yuck.

I don't want to look at the grade I got on my economics exam. I'm scared.
I'm a big fat scaredy?scairdy?scardey?scardie? cat.

I need to go to sleep so I can wake up around 8:00 to do homework before 10:30.
Goodnight blog and readers if you exist.

Hi again

I really don't know why I'm writing in here.
I have somewhere around four other blogs I could be writing in.
Maybe it's because I don't think that anyone actually reads this so I'll be free from scrutiny.
One of my other blogs was made for that. But I guess I don't want to post things off subject in that one. It takes away from the novelty of what it is. It's a sex blog by the way, so that's why this would be off subject because it's not about sex. Btw again...I'm starting to think I'm being way too 'OMG I HAVE A SEX BLOG' and it's starting to annoy even me. I'm sorry if I've been like that to you and it's annoying. Even though I doubt anyone is actually going to read this.

I've been so detached lately. I really feel like I need something new to happen in my life to ground me. As weird as that is...I need something new to make me feel more like myself? Wtf is that about? I'm odd.
I went to do some people observing today for my Soc. project. It was ok. I don't like going out by myself so much. I wish I had someone(preferably a girl) I could feel free to call anytime to just hang out with me. But every one is busy with their work or their social life or their significant other...all three of which I'm pretty much or very much lacking in.

I found myself looking at old pictures the other day from high school. I really miss San Antonio. I hope this summer I'm able to spend a lot of time with my friends. Dealing with loneliness in one way or another my whole life still doesn't take the blow off of it when it hits me hard like now.

bye for now, I think I'll go watch a girly movie. Pride & Predjudice perhaps? Eh...we'll see.

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