The spoken word

In my chicano/a culture class there was a group presentation on the chicano/a spoken word. It was fantastic. I wish I felt creative enough in writing and such to be confident in writing my own poetry and whatnot.
I read some Sandra Cisneros aloud to myself earlier. It made me want to do a taco shop poetry readings sometime but I'm scared to ask people to come with me and I don't want to go alone. I think I'm scared they'll say yes and I'll have to go and read poetry to strangers. Do I really want to put myself out there like that? I'm conflicted. I think I do. I think it would be awesome to see reations to something like that...but am I really the kind of girl who would go do that? I would like to be. Yikes.

That Luna powder drink stuff is gross.

I have too much to eat in my dorm room. I went on a snack spree over the past few days and my mom sent me an Easter basket/box with a ton of candy and snacks...and I now have enough snacks to last me a very long time. It's time for me to take up doing some excercises again. It's been too long already. Yuck.

I don't want to look at the grade I got on my economics exam. I'm scared.
I'm a big fat scaredy?scairdy?scardey?scardie? cat.

I need to go to sleep so I can wake up around 8:00 to do homework before 10:30.
Goodnight blog and readers if you exist.

Hi again

I really don't know why I'm writing in here.
I have somewhere around four other blogs I could be writing in.
Maybe it's because I don't think that anyone actually reads this so I'll be free from scrutiny.
One of my other blogs was made for that. But I guess I don't want to post things off subject in that one. It takes away from the novelty of what it is. It's a sex blog by the way, so that's why this would be off subject because it's not about sex. Btw again...I'm starting to think I'm being way too 'OMG I HAVE A SEX BLOG' and it's starting to annoy even me. I'm sorry if I've been like that to you and it's annoying. Even though I doubt anyone is actually going to read this.

I've been so detached lately. I really feel like I need something new to happen in my life to ground me. As weird as that is...I need something new to make me feel more like myself? Wtf is that about? I'm odd.
I went to do some people observing today for my Soc. project. It was ok. I don't like going out by myself so much. I wish I had someone(preferably a girl) I could feel free to call anytime to just hang out with me. But every one is busy with their work or their social life or their significant other...all three of which I'm pretty much or very much lacking in.

I found myself looking at old pictures the other day from high school. I really miss San Antonio. I hope this summer I'm able to spend a lot of time with my friends. Dealing with loneliness in one way or another my whole life still doesn't take the blow off of it when it hits me hard like now.

bye for now, I think I'll go watch a girly movie. Pride & Predjudice perhaps? Eh...we'll see.