Already my life is looking up. I'm really happy with the way things are going now that I'm back.
Last night I went to a show and saw Andrew Jackson Jihad play and it was amazing and my heart was happy again.
It's odd how someone's (semi-)cynical view on life can totally make me so much more optimistic about it. That band's music is just tremendous to me, it blows my mind how honest they are in all ways.
I also got to visit Dan after the show and he and I had a good talk. It's been awhile since I've had one of those with the opposite sex. It's a good thing to have, it definitely helps to brings things into a different perspective. I'm also excited to try more of his home brews, so far the one I tried wasn't terrible and the one that's going now sounds pretty yummy.
Today I got more settled into my tiny apartment. It's wayyy too cluttered for two people. You don't realize it until you set foot in here, but it's pretty bad. I was expecting more but oh well, I'll live I suppose. I meet my roomie tomorrow, I really don't know what kind of person she is at all, I just know that she's not a total soroity girl like my last one so that's one up.
Yay for food.
Woot for coffee, I got a Kona Blend at Fry's today, we'll see how good it is tomorrow morning I suppose.
Friday, August 17, 2007
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
My heart hurts.
It's really hard for me to write about it. I'll try the few sentences at a time thing.
I went in.
Sara (new owner) told me she fired me for stealing so she didn't think the law applied to me. I went home, printed out the law, it says 'involuntary discharge' which is defined as the employer letting the employee go for various reasons, including 'cause or misconduct'.
I just wanted my check so I could be done with the shop, they hurt me firing me the way they did.
I just gave ONE friend a ONE dollar discount on a FOUR dollar drink. That's not even my full employee discount. I payed it back and fixed it on the register and everything and all she had to do was just tell me they shop was too behind to be doing that, I only had 2 more mornings left.
When I showed them the printed papers (the Texas Pay Day law says that if an employee is fired the employer is required to give them their paycheck within 6 calender days) they got on the defensive saying that they didn't know how much I could have been stealing.
Yeah, what with ALL the friends I have in San Marcos to give free drinks to.
They said they could file this and take me to court for stealing and whatnot.
Then they said they couldn't give me my paycheck anyways because Wells Fargo is handling it all and they won't have them until Saturday. Why would I steal from this place? I put my heart into this place.
I put up with bullshit because I believed in the shop for what it was. I stayed on for 3 months. 3 months of bullshit (minus Chele, she was pretty much one of the only redeeming people of the shop).
It just hurts knowing that they're always going to think of me as the girl who was stealing, and they're probably going to tell all my regulars about this and they're all going to think I was this terrible person.
I really just wish that they could just give me my paycheck and I can be done with it. I don't even want to file my taxes for this place next year because I don't want to think about it ever again after Saturday.
They're the boyfriend who you put everything into, you stress yourself out over, and then he screws you over right at the end. But they're worse than that.
They really hurt me, a blow to my weakest spot.
I went in.
Sara (new owner) told me she fired me for stealing so she didn't think the law applied to me. I went home, printed out the law, it says 'involuntary discharge' which is defined as the employer letting the employee go for various reasons, including 'cause or misconduct'.
I just wanted my check so I could be done with the shop, they hurt me firing me the way they did.
I just gave ONE friend a ONE dollar discount on a FOUR dollar drink. That's not even my full employee discount. I payed it back and fixed it on the register and everything and all she had to do was just tell me they shop was too behind to be doing that, I only had 2 more mornings left.
When I showed them the printed papers (the Texas Pay Day law says that if an employee is fired the employer is required to give them their paycheck within 6 calender days) they got on the defensive saying that they didn't know how much I could have been stealing.
Yeah, what with ALL the friends I have in San Marcos to give free drinks to.
They said they could file this and take me to court for stealing and whatnot.
Then they said they couldn't give me my paycheck anyways because Wells Fargo is handling it all and they won't have them until Saturday. Why would I steal from this place? I put my heart into this place.
I put up with bullshit because I believed in the shop for what it was. I stayed on for 3 months. 3 months of bullshit (minus Chele, she was pretty much one of the only redeeming people of the shop).
It just hurts knowing that they're always going to think of me as the girl who was stealing, and they're probably going to tell all my regulars about this and they're all going to think I was this terrible person.
I really just wish that they could just give me my paycheck and I can be done with it. I don't even want to file my taxes for this place next year because I don't want to think about it ever again after Saturday.
They're the boyfriend who you put everything into, you stress yourself out over, and then he screws you over right at the end. But they're worse than that.
They really hurt me, a blow to my weakest spot.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Score!
So I did end up breaking up with him.
The day after I wrote that post, he was an ass to me, and I just decided to end it. Everyone told me I should get rid of him, that I could do better. I finally took their advice, though that does sound really mean and makes me sounds like I feel like I'm better than him, but he really was pretty narcissistic and had a bit of a temper, and he didn't have his priorities straight at all.
I'm so incredibly happy. I actually had a good nights sleep last night, I was extra cheery at work today, and I got to laze around after work today and not worry about getting into a fight with him.
Oh yummy day.
The day after I wrote that post, he was an ass to me, and I just decided to end it. Everyone told me I should get rid of him, that I could do better. I finally took their advice, though that does sound really mean and makes me sounds like I feel like I'm better than him, but he really was pretty narcissistic and had a bit of a temper, and he didn't have his priorities straight at all.
I'm so incredibly happy. I actually had a good nights sleep last night, I was extra cheery at work today, and I got to laze around after work today and not worry about getting into a fight with him.
Oh yummy day.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Living in San Marcos
It's been another long while since I posted in here.
There's been so much drama at the job that I aquired that I can't believe I'm still there. I am the longest working employee and we've gone through three managers and are on our fourth and fifth at the moment...if that doesn't say anything then I don't know what else I would say. There's too much to write or even think about that's gone down there in the past two months.
I would have an assistant manager position there if I wasn't leaving in a month. That's a crazy thought to think. I wonder if I could have handled the responsibility.
I do however love being a barista, there is so much about coffee and espresso that I want to learn. I'm becoming an espresso junkie.
So I have a summer fling going on and there's drama with that too. I hate drama. I keep on saying "I don't know how long it's going to last" but I do, I'm too stupid to just say, "hey man, you're not the guy for me, not even for a month more" so I still haven't broken up with him and I doubt I will before summer ends. I tried once, but I ended up giving him a second chance. I know it's wrong to stay with someone just because I want some company here in San Marcos...but I can't seem to convince myself to be the mean person and just let him go. I keep on telling myself, "it's an experience- you've never been with a guy like this and you should experience it" but the more I 'experience' it the more I find I don't like it. I need to tell him he's on probation now because of his last stunt that I definitely don't really want to talk about.
One of my high school friends has gotten into Blow. It makes me nervous and I'm sad that she's going down that path. I hate seeing it happen, seeing her get into that stuff and get out of school. I can't really do much though, other than let her know that I love her I guess. She's in San Antonio and I can't go down there to hang out with her very often and she's usually not online when I am.
Some of my other friends from high school have lots of drama happening in their lives too. It's not the simple high school stuff anymore either.
I miss the girls we were in high school sometimes. Even if we/(mostly they) were a little over-dramatic sometimes.
I can't wait to get back to Arizona. I miss everyone. I have hopes for this upcoming year. I wonder if any of them will properly ripen. I've made a few calls with friends there, it makes me glad to know that they haven't forgetten me, I certainly haven't forgotten them. My life there just seemed so much more at peace than it's going here. I miss my live music the most I think. My heart hasn't been touched like it was all those nights at The Trunk Space since my last show there.
I have made at least one amazing friend here though. My uncle is fantastic. Not the one I'm actually related to, but his husband. I mildly suspected but didn't really think that I would actually bond with him so well. We talk almost every day about my drama and life and he's geniunely interested and gives me some great advice. I don't know what I would have done if he wasn't there to talk with me about my parents being so overprotective still. I practically broke down that day and he was there to talk to me about it and he even told me about his experience of coming out to his parents to relate, I thought that was amazing. He cooks with me and I've introduced him to SARK, not to mention he's a coffee freak too- he's really one of my best friends here in San Marcos. I can't wait to bring Shearm and Margaret here to meet both of them (and their most adorable little Eiffel-he's the best kitten in the world), we're gonna have dinner and it's going to be lovely. :D
Whew...I still have so much to rant about but I think that's enough for now.
Until next time,
Your Favorite Barista
There's been so much drama at the job that I aquired that I can't believe I'm still there. I am the longest working employee and we've gone through three managers and are on our fourth and fifth at the moment...if that doesn't say anything then I don't know what else I would say. There's too much to write or even think about that's gone down there in the past two months.
I would have an assistant manager position there if I wasn't leaving in a month. That's a crazy thought to think. I wonder if I could have handled the responsibility.
I do however love being a barista, there is so much about coffee and espresso that I want to learn. I'm becoming an espresso junkie.
So I have a summer fling going on and there's drama with that too. I hate drama. I keep on saying "I don't know how long it's going to last" but I do, I'm too stupid to just say, "hey man, you're not the guy for me, not even for a month more" so I still haven't broken up with him and I doubt I will before summer ends. I tried once, but I ended up giving him a second chance. I know it's wrong to stay with someone just because I want some company here in San Marcos...but I can't seem to convince myself to be the mean person and just let him go. I keep on telling myself, "it's an experience- you've never been with a guy like this and you should experience it" but the more I 'experience' it the more I find I don't like it. I need to tell him he's on probation now because of his last stunt that I definitely don't really want to talk about.
One of my high school friends has gotten into Blow. It makes me nervous and I'm sad that she's going down that path. I hate seeing it happen, seeing her get into that stuff and get out of school. I can't really do much though, other than let her know that I love her I guess. She's in San Antonio and I can't go down there to hang out with her very often and she's usually not online when I am.
Some of my other friends from high school have lots of drama happening in their lives too. It's not the simple high school stuff anymore either.
I miss the girls we were in high school sometimes. Even if we/(mostly they) were a little over-dramatic sometimes.
I can't wait to get back to Arizona. I miss everyone. I have hopes for this upcoming year. I wonder if any of them will properly ripen. I've made a few calls with friends there, it makes me glad to know that they haven't forgetten me, I certainly haven't forgotten them. My life there just seemed so much more at peace than it's going here. I miss my live music the most I think. My heart hasn't been touched like it was all those nights at The Trunk Space since my last show there.
I have made at least one amazing friend here though. My uncle is fantastic. Not the one I'm actually related to, but his husband. I mildly suspected but didn't really think that I would actually bond with him so well. We talk almost every day about my drama and life and he's geniunely interested and gives me some great advice. I don't know what I would have done if he wasn't there to talk with me about my parents being so overprotective still. I practically broke down that day and he was there to talk to me about it and he even told me about his experience of coming out to his parents to relate, I thought that was amazing. He cooks with me and I've introduced him to SARK, not to mention he's a coffee freak too- he's really one of my best friends here in San Marcos. I can't wait to bring Shearm and Margaret here to meet both of them (and their most adorable little Eiffel-he's the best kitten in the world), we're gonna have dinner and it's going to be lovely. :D
Whew...I still have so much to rant about but I think that's enough for now.
Until next time,
Your Favorite Barista
Thursday, May 17, 2007
I hate not being able to get work done
I locked my keys in my car this morning. It was just about the suckiest thing I could do to myself.
I had a whole long list of things I wanted to get done today. Instead I was stuck at home doing nothing pretty much.
I kept busy by organizing and throwing away unneeded things in the kitchen here. It was boring to say the least. (minus finding my great grandpa's moonshine, haha, :D )
I can't wait to start working and getting things done this summer. I want to get my dads bike fixed up. So far it looks like it's gonna cost me around $100 just to replace and install the tires/tubes/rimstrips, then I gotta get the brakes checked and maybe replaced also, not to mention getting a car rack....I can't wait to get a job to start paying for this. I think it's a cool looking bike and it's not a piece of junk, it's a low end of the high end stuff, plus it's an heirloom now so I really wanna get it fixed up to ride. My dad put thousands of miles into it while he was in Germany and it's still in great shape.
Tomorrow I got to get things done and also I'm going to a show with my sister and it will be fun, even if the crowd/bands will be a little more punky/skinhead(?) than I'm used to. I hope I don't get hurt if I decide to venture into the mosh pit...I think I'll not do that this time.
I hope I get that job in San Marcos...my uncles house that I would be staying in would be fantastic to live in. Who could resist living with three gay guys in a giant house with a HUGE fully-stocked kitchen, and your own guest bedroom with two beautiful views? It would be such a fun time. Not to mention the one job that I really really want is at a place that is perfect.
I think I'm done now.
I had a whole long list of things I wanted to get done today. Instead I was stuck at home doing nothing pretty much.
I kept busy by organizing and throwing away unneeded things in the kitchen here. It was boring to say the least. (minus finding my great grandpa's moonshine, haha, :D )
I can't wait to start working and getting things done this summer. I want to get my dads bike fixed up. So far it looks like it's gonna cost me around $100 just to replace and install the tires/tubes/rimstrips, then I gotta get the brakes checked and maybe replaced also, not to mention getting a car rack....I can't wait to get a job to start paying for this. I think it's a cool looking bike and it's not a piece of junk, it's a low end of the high end stuff, plus it's an heirloom now so I really wanna get it fixed up to ride. My dad put thousands of miles into it while he was in Germany and it's still in great shape.
Tomorrow I got to get things done and also I'm going to a show with my sister and it will be fun, even if the crowd/bands will be a little more punky/skinhead(?) than I'm used to. I hope I don't get hurt if I decide to venture into the mosh pit...I think I'll not do that this time.
I hope I get that job in San Marcos...my uncles house that I would be staying in would be fantastic to live in. Who could resist living with three gay guys in a giant house with a HUGE fully-stocked kitchen, and your own guest bedroom with two beautiful views? It would be such a fun time. Not to mention the one job that I really really want is at a place that is perfect.
I think I'm done now.
Friday, May 4, 2007
I'm almost outta here!
I leave on the 10th from Phoenix and hopefully will get into San Antonio on the 10th also. It depends on how well my dad and I drive. I'm hoping he trusts me with longer streches this time. I'd rather drive back up here in August on my own so we don't have to waste money on flights. It's a long drive, but it's really pretty awesome, driving is one of my favorite things.
My new baby cousin was born one week ago today. 8lbs and 14 ounces. My aunt had to get a c-section because Sophia just didn't want to come out. They induced in the morning and she still hadn't come out before 7:00 PM. But I hear she's absolutely beautiful! I'll see her next Saturday I think.
I've got so much to do before I leave, these next few days are going to be crazy busy. I can't believe my first semester is almost over. I have 1 paper (due later today @4!!) and 3 more finals. I hope hope hope I do well in my classes and keep my GPA higher than 3.5, I'm really gonna need that buffer later I'm thinking.
I've been on Tastespotting just about every half hour of every day. I'm ridiculous. But it's sooo addicting and the pictures are so gorgeous. It makes me want to cook so much. I can't wait until I can make things this summer!
kk...I need to get to writing my paper!
"It's the moments that are gone that will lead us home."
-The Grassroots Campaign
My new baby cousin was born one week ago today. 8lbs and 14 ounces. My aunt had to get a c-section because Sophia just didn't want to come out. They induced in the morning and she still hadn't come out before 7:00 PM. But I hear she's absolutely beautiful! I'll see her next Saturday I think.
I've got so much to do before I leave, these next few days are going to be crazy busy. I can't believe my first semester is almost over. I have 1 paper (due later today @4!!) and 3 more finals. I hope hope hope I do well in my classes and keep my GPA higher than 3.5, I'm really gonna need that buffer later I'm thinking.
I've been on Tastespotting just about every half hour of every day. I'm ridiculous. But it's sooo addicting and the pictures are so gorgeous. It makes me want to cook so much. I can't wait until I can make things this summer!
kk...I need to get to writing my paper!
"It's the moments that are gone that will lead us home."
-The Grassroots Campaign
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
The spoken word
In my chicano/a culture class there was a group presentation on the chicano/a spoken word. It was fantastic. I wish I felt creative enough in writing and such to be confident in writing my own poetry and whatnot.
I read some Sandra Cisneros aloud to myself earlier. It made me want to do a taco shop poetry readings sometime but I'm scared to ask people to come with me and I don't want to go alone. I think I'm scared they'll say yes and I'll have to go and read poetry to strangers. Do I really want to put myself out there like that? I'm conflicted. I think I do. I think it would be awesome to see reations to something like that...but am I really the kind of girl who would go do that? I would like to be. Yikes.
That Luna powder drink stuff is gross.
I have too much to eat in my dorm room. I went on a snack spree over the past few days and my mom sent me an Easter basket/box with a ton of candy and snacks...and I now have enough snacks to last me a very long time. It's time for me to take up doing some excercises again. It's been too long already. Yuck.
I don't want to look at the grade I got on my economics exam. I'm scared.
I'm a big fat scaredy?scairdy?scardey?scardie? cat.
I need to go to sleep so I can wake up around 8:00 to do homework before 10:30.
Goodnight blog and readers if you exist.
I read some Sandra Cisneros aloud to myself earlier. It made me want to do a taco shop poetry readings sometime but I'm scared to ask people to come with me and I don't want to go alone. I think I'm scared they'll say yes and I'll have to go and read poetry to strangers. Do I really want to put myself out there like that? I'm conflicted. I think I do. I think it would be awesome to see reations to something like that...but am I really the kind of girl who would go do that? I would like to be. Yikes.
That Luna powder drink stuff is gross.
I have too much to eat in my dorm room. I went on a snack spree over the past few days and my mom sent me an Easter basket/box with a ton of candy and snacks...and I now have enough snacks to last me a very long time. It's time for me to take up doing some excercises again. It's been too long already. Yuck.
I don't want to look at the grade I got on my economics exam. I'm scared.
I'm a big fat scaredy?scairdy?scardey?scardie? cat.
I need to go to sleep so I can wake up around 8:00 to do homework before 10:30.
Goodnight blog and readers if you exist.
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