So I did end up breaking up with him.
The day after I wrote that post, he was an ass to me, and I just decided to end it. Everyone told me I should get rid of him, that I could do better. I finally took their advice, though that does sound really mean and makes me sounds like I feel like I'm better than him, but he really was pretty narcissistic and had a bit of a temper, and he didn't have his priorities straight at all.
I'm so incredibly happy. I actually had a good nights sleep last night, I was extra cheery at work today, and I got to laze around after work today and not worry about getting into a fight with him.
Oh yummy day.
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Living in San Marcos
It's been another long while since I posted in here.
There's been so much drama at the job that I aquired that I can't believe I'm still there. I am the longest working employee and we've gone through three managers and are on our fourth and fifth at the moment...if that doesn't say anything then I don't know what else I would say. There's too much to write or even think about that's gone down there in the past two months.
I would have an assistant manager position there if I wasn't leaving in a month. That's a crazy thought to think. I wonder if I could have handled the responsibility.
I do however love being a barista, there is so much about coffee and espresso that I want to learn. I'm becoming an espresso junkie.
So I have a summer fling going on and there's drama with that too. I hate drama. I keep on saying "I don't know how long it's going to last" but I do, I'm too stupid to just say, "hey man, you're not the guy for me, not even for a month more" so I still haven't broken up with him and I doubt I will before summer ends. I tried once, but I ended up giving him a second chance. I know it's wrong to stay with someone just because I want some company here in San Marcos...but I can't seem to convince myself to be the mean person and just let him go. I keep on telling myself, "it's an experience- you've never been with a guy like this and you should experience it" but the more I 'experience' it the more I find I don't like it. I need to tell him he's on probation now because of his last stunt that I definitely don't really want to talk about.
One of my high school friends has gotten into Blow. It makes me nervous and I'm sad that she's going down that path. I hate seeing it happen, seeing her get into that stuff and get out of school. I can't really do much though, other than let her know that I love her I guess. She's in San Antonio and I can't go down there to hang out with her very often and she's usually not online when I am.
Some of my other friends from high school have lots of drama happening in their lives too. It's not the simple high school stuff anymore either.
I miss the girls we were in high school sometimes. Even if we/(mostly they) were a little over-dramatic sometimes.
I can't wait to get back to Arizona. I miss everyone. I have hopes for this upcoming year. I wonder if any of them will properly ripen. I've made a few calls with friends there, it makes me glad to know that they haven't forgetten me, I certainly haven't forgotten them. My life there just seemed so much more at peace than it's going here. I miss my live music the most I think. My heart hasn't been touched like it was all those nights at The Trunk Space since my last show there.
I have made at least one amazing friend here though. My uncle is fantastic. Not the one I'm actually related to, but his husband. I mildly suspected but didn't really think that I would actually bond with him so well. We talk almost every day about my drama and life and he's geniunely interested and gives me some great advice. I don't know what I would have done if he wasn't there to talk with me about my parents being so overprotective still. I practically broke down that day and he was there to talk to me about it and he even told me about his experience of coming out to his parents to relate, I thought that was amazing. He cooks with me and I've introduced him to SARK, not to mention he's a coffee freak too- he's really one of my best friends here in San Marcos. I can't wait to bring Shearm and Margaret here to meet both of them (and their most adorable little Eiffel-he's the best kitten in the world), we're gonna have dinner and it's going to be lovely. :D
Whew...I still have so much to rant about but I think that's enough for now.
Until next time,
Your Favorite Barista
There's been so much drama at the job that I aquired that I can't believe I'm still there. I am the longest working employee and we've gone through three managers and are on our fourth and fifth at the moment...if that doesn't say anything then I don't know what else I would say. There's too much to write or even think about that's gone down there in the past two months.
I would have an assistant manager position there if I wasn't leaving in a month. That's a crazy thought to think. I wonder if I could have handled the responsibility.
I do however love being a barista, there is so much about coffee and espresso that I want to learn. I'm becoming an espresso junkie.
So I have a summer fling going on and there's drama with that too. I hate drama. I keep on saying "I don't know how long it's going to last" but I do, I'm too stupid to just say, "hey man, you're not the guy for me, not even for a month more" so I still haven't broken up with him and I doubt I will before summer ends. I tried once, but I ended up giving him a second chance. I know it's wrong to stay with someone just because I want some company here in San Marcos...but I can't seem to convince myself to be the mean person and just let him go. I keep on telling myself, "it's an experience- you've never been with a guy like this and you should experience it" but the more I 'experience' it the more I find I don't like it. I need to tell him he's on probation now because of his last stunt that I definitely don't really want to talk about.
One of my high school friends has gotten into Blow. It makes me nervous and I'm sad that she's going down that path. I hate seeing it happen, seeing her get into that stuff and get out of school. I can't really do much though, other than let her know that I love her I guess. She's in San Antonio and I can't go down there to hang out with her very often and she's usually not online when I am.
Some of my other friends from high school have lots of drama happening in their lives too. It's not the simple high school stuff anymore either.
I miss the girls we were in high school sometimes. Even if we/(mostly they) were a little over-dramatic sometimes.
I can't wait to get back to Arizona. I miss everyone. I have hopes for this upcoming year. I wonder if any of them will properly ripen. I've made a few calls with friends there, it makes me glad to know that they haven't forgetten me, I certainly haven't forgotten them. My life there just seemed so much more at peace than it's going here. I miss my live music the most I think. My heart hasn't been touched like it was all those nights at The Trunk Space since my last show there.
I have made at least one amazing friend here though. My uncle is fantastic. Not the one I'm actually related to, but his husband. I mildly suspected but didn't really think that I would actually bond with him so well. We talk almost every day about my drama and life and he's geniunely interested and gives me some great advice. I don't know what I would have done if he wasn't there to talk with me about my parents being so overprotective still. I practically broke down that day and he was there to talk to me about it and he even told me about his experience of coming out to his parents to relate, I thought that was amazing. He cooks with me and I've introduced him to SARK, not to mention he's a coffee freak too- he's really one of my best friends here in San Marcos. I can't wait to bring Shearm and Margaret here to meet both of them (and their most adorable little Eiffel-he's the best kitten in the world), we're gonna have dinner and it's going to be lovely. :D
Whew...I still have so much to rant about but I think that's enough for now.
Until next time,
Your Favorite Barista
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